IT'S CHRISTMASS!

Well, it may be Christmas, the time to be merry and goodwill to all men and all that crap, and usually I am well into the Christmas spirit, but not this year.......

In-fact, I think, no, I know, this is the worst Christmas in my entire life! And the New Year is not going to be any better.

Like I said in my last blog, my Dad was waiting to go into hospital for an op to see what the doctors could do, well we got word that he was to go in on 23rd December for a scan on his heart to make sure it was strong enough to cope with the op, and all being well he would have the op on Christmas Eve of all days! So we deiced to have Christmas early and we had a lovely evening at my sisters with her kids and their kids, 4 generations in all. We had turkey and all the trimmings then the wee ones played pass the parcel. Then we opened all the prizzies, it was a lovely night, but tinged with a bit of - not sure what the word is really, sadness maybe, fear! trepidation! not sure!!

Anyway to cut a long story short Dad had the op, and to begin with we thought everything had gone good. When someone tells you the operation went well, that is what you think!! Yes? No!

What they ment was Dad had got through the actual operation ok! What my sister had to tell me when I arrived to see Dad on Christmas Eve was a completely different story!

We had been told there was two outcomes to this operation. When they opened Dad up they would either take out the tumor on his bile duct and everything would be ok, OR if, when they opened him up, they found seeds in other organs, then they would just close him up again.

Well, by now, you know what the outcome was, they closed him up!

WHY IS CANCER SUCH A PURE BASTARD!!!

The doc says Dad may have a few months - but it may be just weeks!

3 weeks till Christmas, AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Sorry not been blogging much lately. Got a lot on my mind recently, one good thing has happened, went for my 6 month check up at the doctors, and had a smear test done, and it was all clear. Fingers crossed it stays that way.

Sorry, two good things have happened. The other one is that I have got myself a new car. Still got the van, but managed to get a wee 4-wheeled drive car, after the snow last year I was determined I wasn't going to get stuck if we had any snow this winter. Thank God I did - it started snowing here last week and it hasn't stopped since, but my wee car is great and has no prob with the snow. Have also managed to get all my Christmas cards written and posted, and put a wee card in along with them letting everyone know what I'm doing and asking for sponsorship. Just need to wait and see now what comes back to me. Love Christmas, best time for the family to get together and catch up. Unfortunately everything else has been shit!

Got stood on by a horse a fortnight ago, really thought I'd broken my foot, that's the last thing I need just now, but thankfully it was just badly bruised.

Also, as I said in my last blog, my dad ended up in hospital for a bit in October. Turned out it wasn't just a blocked bile duct he had. He has a malignant tumor on his bile duct. The doctors have decided they can operate on it, but they said they wanted to operate asap, but that will be 3 weeks ago tomorrow!!!! As you can imagine my head is up my arse, why dose something like this have to happen to someone as lovely as my dad, who has hardly had an ill day in all his 80 years. Life is so unfair, he's worked hard all his life and then this happens, SHIT! SHIT! SHIT!

Needles to say, training has been non-existent, but I'm active enough with the job I'm in and once the good weather comes back (always ever hopeful) shouldn't take long to get back on track, still managing to get to Zumba most weeks, great cardio workout! As for fund raising, as I said hope to get a bit over Christmas from relatives, then will get raffle tickets printed up and another sponsored dog walk, and lots more car booting and maybe a pub quiz or two. As always, trying to look on the bright side, a bit difficult at the moment, but will try. xxx