Well, it may be Christmas, the time to be merry and goodwill to all men and all that crap, and usually I am well into the Christmas spirit, but not this year.......
In-fact, I think, no, I know, this is the worst Christmas in my entire life! And the New Year is not going to be any better.
Like I said in my last blog, my Dad was waiting to go into hospital for an op to see what the doctors could do, well we got word that he was to go in on 23rd December for a scan on his heart to make sure it was strong enough to cope with the op, and all being well he would have the op on Christmas Eve of all days! So we deiced to have Christmas early and we had a lovely evening at my sisters with her kids and their kids, 4 generations in all. We had turkey and all the trimmings then the wee ones played pass the parcel. Then we opened all the prizzies, it was a lovely night, but tinged with a bit of - not sure what the word is really, sadness maybe, fear! trepidation! not sure!!
Anyway to cut a long story short Dad had the op, and to begin with we thought everything had gone good. When someone tells you the operation went well, that is what you think!! Yes? No!
What they ment was Dad had got through the actual operation ok! What my sister had to tell me when I arrived to see Dad on Christmas Eve was a completely different story!
We had been told there was two outcomes to this operation. When they opened Dad up they would either take out the tumor on his bile duct and everything would be ok, OR if, when they opened him up, they found seeds in other organs, then they would just close him up again.
Well, by now, you know what the outcome was, they closed him up!
WHY IS CANCER SUCH A PURE BASTARD!!!
The doc says Dad may have a few months - but it may be just weeks!
oh how awful for you. I'm sorry you've had such a crap time of it. I hope they manage your Dad well and make sure he is pain free and comfortable. And I hope for some miracle that he manages months, in comfort, rather than weeks.
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